blog.

i need spiritual guidance.

jabitte:

I need help making decisions. I’m currently on a liquid only herbal detox because supposedly that helps clear your mind. I need a guru though. S County where are you? I have too many decisions to make and very very little time. what to do.

Ehh liquid only “detoxes” aren’t that good Sway :\ There are better ways to help clear your mind. All that will do is deplete you of nutrients necessary for your body and mind to work better.

One thing you could do is go on a nice walk and take in everything that’s around you. Do things that are comforting and grounding for you, I think that’ll help with the best decision making… the decisions you would make.

recently

jabitte:

i went to ny recently and surprised jamey at his art show but on the way there I was scouted to be in Lucky Magazine:

so I might have a shoot with them soon.
then went to James’ art show where I got a little drunk

Then I went here

which I think was a bust because MJ died. but the rooftop and free drinks were great.
Then I went to market hotel for this:

which was weird and i’m not sure what happened.
then the next day I went to brunch al fresco with these cuties:

and we used bebe chloe to pick up cute single dads. also we saw kelly ripa. she is very very skinny. verging on skeleton.

for dinner we went to bar blanc which is always my fav place to be.
cute matre’ds cherged my phone for me, and made a special going away dessert for my friend Clara. I had good cnversation with my two best ladies, drank wine, ate an artichoke and poached egg salad and rhubarb pie with gelato.

then i went to sleep.
the next day i went to long beach, layed out on the beach, ate veggie sausage.
smoked herb and then made everyone do many many shots of jameson. we shot fireworks off a pier, i layed on the grass. good night. the next day after a three hour trip back into the city. I wandered around soho listening to lou reed on a sunny day and ended up meeting my friends at RiceNYC where i had green tea ice cream and we talked about the benefits of having a good teddy bear.

in the morning was my go-see at Lucky, which went well, and they should have a shoot set up for me within the next few issues.
Another day I got taro ice cream which is always delicious
and then I went to a Bryant Park movie

I miss you! Wednesday I’m going on a getaway and my mom is super excited about all the fitness classes they have (one of them is a bootcamp on the beach bahaha!) I’m gonna be wishing you were there sipping Stoli cosmos poolside with me :( Oh my gosh and this is the first time my whole family is going to be separated from Matilda! We’re thinking about asking someone in Naples to pet-sit her so we can see her during the day.

and duhh of course everything went well at the go-see! TARO IS THE BOMB!!! I’ve had taro bubble-tea (upset my tummy) but it was worth it.

p.s. When I get back to Richmond, we’re going to New York. Dropping everything, going there!

Excerpts from What I Talk About When I Talk About Running by Haruki Murakami

1. I don’t think it’s merely willpower that makes you able to do something. The world isn’t that simple. To tell the truth, I don’t even think there’s that much correlation between my running every day and whether or not I have a strong will. I think I’ve been able to run for more than twenty years for a simple reason: It suits me.

2. “Mr. Murakami,” Mr. Kageyama said, surprised as he saw me getting ready to run, “you’re not really thinking of running the whole route, are you?”

“Of course I am. That’s why I came here.”

“Really? But when we do these kinds of projects most people don’t go all the way. We just take some photos, and most of them don’t finish the whole route. So you really are going to run the entire thing?”

Sometimes the world baffles me. I can’t believe that people would really do things like that.

3.  I pass twenty-two  miles. I’ve never run more than twenty-two miles, so this is  terra incognita.

4. Exerting yourself to the fullest within your individual limits: that’s the essence of running, and a metaphor for life - and for me, for writing as well.

5. They say it’s all because of global warming. Maybe it is, maybe it isn’t. Some experts claim it is, some claim it isn’t. There’s some proof that it is, some that it isn’t. But still people say that most of the problems the earth is facing are, more or less, due to global warming. When sales of apparel go down, when tons of driftwood wash up on the shore, when there are floods and droughts, when consumer prices go up, most of the fault is ascribed to global warming. What the world needs is a set villain that people can point at and say, “It’s all your fault!”

6. One day, out of the blue, I wanted to write a novel. And one day, out of the blue, I started to run - simply because I wanted to. I’ve always done whatever I ever I felt like doing in life.

burwell:

enicoleh:

okay, i’m officially scared for the future. or, i guess scared that there isn’t one. our economy sucks, we’re still at war, four famous people just died (5 if you count one of the golden girls who died back in april, i think) and now there have been train collisions in d.c. and china. what the fuck. i don’t want the world to end, man. i want to live to be 80 or 90 years old. i don’t even care if i have to wear diapers cause i shit myself, i’m just not ready for this to be over, i don’t think anyone is. but honestly, the mayans theory about 2012 seems to make more and more sense lately. maybe it’s just a wake-up call, maybe it’s nothing, or maybe it’s all almost over.

i’d like to know if the world is going to end soon, though. because if it is, i’m fucking dropping out of school and traveling europe and doing whatever the fuck i want. seriously.

someone tell me that i’ve never been more wrong before. please.

it’s a weird thing, are we just making the scenario fit, or are we actually in the very situation we are dreading?  we won’t know until it happens i’m afraid, and by then i will be too late.

so with something like this, i just like to go with the flow and as long as i’m having a good time and not fucking up too badly it’s all good.  even if the world was ending, why would you ever not want to have fun?

life without fun isn’t worth living.

I get that feeling too, but not necessarily that the world is literally going to end. Poof! No more! But then again you never know. I believe there’s so much more out there than we can ever imagine so many our concepts of things are close-minded and too… earth-bound?

Anyway, why not just live your life how you want to live it? I think that’s a motto that’s been going around before all the anxiety around 2012 came around. Maybe reincarnation does exist, but your life as whoever you are now only happens once - make the most of it!